[ Listen to those physically dangerous situations that Fabian is bringing up, even if he's generalising. ]
Getting stabbed's easy-- we're always getting stabbed. I don't have to read any books to get stabbed, I just have to swing around an axe and hit things.
[ And listen to Gorgug's near whine of a reply, and how nothing the threat of violence sounds coming from Gorgug. He doesn't even care. Why would they care at this point? Whatever, so their lives as they knew them nearly ended twice and there were a bunch of deaths.
So what!!! ]
Do you get homework? [ There's definitely emphasis on that get. Fabian, with his fighter classes and bard dances. What's even homework when you're Fabian? Can he truly understand the suffering? ] Do you have to read books?
[ Maybe you can see now why Fabian doesn't think school work is worse than anything they do when they go out there and fight, Gorgug. Not that Fabian really minds fighting, he thinks it's fun, it's just-- a whole lot more traumatizing stuff happens out there than in any of his classrooms! ]
I mean, we sometimes do? But most of the time in fighter class we are just practicing through sparring, and in bard class we just-- well, we dance. I get homework sometimes for fighter class, but Miss Skullcleaver doesn't believe in homework. She says dance is always in the present. [ Must be nice to have like.. a normal teacher, huh. Gorgug. A chill teacher. Just imagine. ]
[ Must be nice. Gorgug isn't above feeling jealousy, even if it's been dulled be factors. (We guess like walking through a hallway with the guy and his robot baby he just had a breakdown about today.)
It's a brief feeling, though. ]
I had all the homework and studying I had to do because of artificing and the MCAT thing, but, barbarian classes-- I didn't have homework, but Porter was being a hardass. He really wanted me to dig into my anger better for my rage, so I was trying to find time to do that too. To get mad the way he wanted me to.
But honestly, after school and bloodrush practices, I just wanted to sleep.
[ He was pissed off, but finding time for it amongst all that work was hard. It's not a situation he has to deal with now (even if he was back in Spyre), but, man. Man! ]
It's the sort of sound that makes him sound much more like himself than anything else he's said ever since they entered the hospital. Like talking about normal things and not having gotten into too much trouble is giving him some of his usual spirit back, even if he's not quite his usual self just yet. ]
Well, that is because Porter is an asshole.
[ You're totally allowed to call your friends' teachers assholes, okay. Fabian would let his friends call his teachers assholes if they earned it - but fortunately he thinks they are both rather cool in their own way. ]
I can't see any other reason why he would have treated you the way he did. [ Okay, fine, Fig would see another reason. But she truly seems like some unhinged conspiracy theorist about this thing half of the time. ]
[ Gorgug sighs, flapping his arms a little at his sides. There's no disagreement about Porter here (and hey, he's heard it and even said it enough!), but with things where they are now... ]
It's over now. [ Is Gorgug willing to give him a pass now because it's over? You bet!!! ] I mean, I guess it really is over, since we're here and not at school... but I showed him what he wanted to see, and he's willing to give me a chance now. That's all I needed. And I'll show it was the right choice when we see everyone again. I wanna keep it up.
[ Not that Gorgug's been shy about wanting to continue his studies, especially his artificer learning. Maybe to a ridiculous amount to the others, but-- it's a lot of work! And there's a lot of down time in (and out, apparently) Etraya! ]
I don't mind trying a different approach to my rage. I can give it a go.
[ He truly is giving Porter more grace than he deserves...... ]
[ Gorgug is giving Porter more grace than he deserves, Fabian thinks.
Sure, he may not really have personal experience with the guy, and he's fully well aware that Fig likely exaggerates her stories about him. But he also knows just how stressed out the guy made Gorgug seem all the time, and that's frankly pretty unforgiveable in Fabian's eyes. So what if he doesn't give a guy a fair shot - maybe he should first consider not being a jerk to Fabian's friends?? ]
But that doesn't make the way he treated you a good thing. [ Just saying, bro!! Not that Fabian can comment on the rage thing much, considering it's not like it's something he's ever had to deal with on a personal level.. But he can speak about this, at least, shifting the little baby bundle in his arms very carefully as they walk. ] You know that, right?
I know. [ There's no doubt or hesitance in his voice that usually makes itself well and clear if Gorgug even has a pinch of either in him, and the look he gives Fabian when he turns his face to him should surely help prove himself. ] He was an asshole. And, he was really difficult about it. Fig was really trying to help me get my MCAT signed all the time, and it was like-- a wall.
I just have to meet him at his... level? Give him what he wants. [ To a degree. But Gorgug's looking ahead now, the doors to the way out not that far, and considers thoughtfully: ] I think we can both get a good lesson out of it, if I show him, if he just gives people a chance-- and I can get a lesson out of it, too. Dealing with people like him.
[ He truly is looking at the bright side of this! Or attempting. And what if there could be a good lesson for the both of them? Especially with Porter being a teacher who might one day teach another barbarian with interests he might not entirely agree with...
Gorgug walks over to the door to push open, holding it briefly for Fabian to step through (since he has the child!). ]
I'm still working on that here, too. You know-- talking to people.
[ Remember, Fabian? That wonderful conversation about Gorgug gathering information from strangers that they talked about on the ship?? He's still practising!!! ]
[ .. well, Fabian would say there's a difference between talking to assholes and talking to regular people. And that you should pick your battles, and decide what you are and aren't going to waste your energy on..
But Gorgug sounds so earnest about all of this that Fabian has a hard time picking it apart, really. He'd just feel terrible if he tried. Especially when Gorgug has gone out of his way to help him with this entire baby situation. (Yes, technically Gorgug did make it worse somewhere in the middle, but-- the rest of this probably cancels out the whole arm ripping thing.
Probably.)
So rather than pointing any of that out, Fabian just opens his mouth to say: ]
That's good.
[ Hey, it is good, isn't it? If they're going to have to deal with all these people from all sorts of worlds in this place, it's better for Gorgug if he can actually talk to them. ]
I got to know one of my dads... [ There's that... ] And I got you and Riz and Adaine those bracelet beads...
[ What else....who else...
There's a delay before he speaks again, trying to sound confident, as: ] And I've spoken to different people, so, yeah. It's going okay.
[ Nevermind the huge struggle to think there, like Gorgug's brain shut off and had to be rebooted. It's okay if Gorgug doesn't have to give any details, right? Was he supposed to be doing something particular when he spoke to people anyway? ]
It's tempting to say something here about maybe the end result not being as great as Gorgug is imagining it, but.. well, see all of the above. Not to mention that Fabian doesn't want to discourage Gorgug when he knows the other is working on this in his.. own little Gorgug way.
Besides, maybe it's not that the social interactions themselves have been awkward. Maybe it's just that Gorgug trying to relay how they went is just the thing that's happening awkwardly. Fabian would believe it.
So rather than touching any of that, he decides to go for what feels like a safer question. ]
What is that father you've gotten to know like? [ Look, if they can make Fabian a dad, then they can clearly be making anyone a father up in here!! ]
[ What is the dad like? Gorgug's trying to think about it, and the small interaction he's had with the guy... ]
He's...okay. He mowed a lawn, [ wow, ] and I thought he was gonna start bullying me, but he told me he wasn't. [ Amazing. ] He's taller than me. And... he likes his jacket.
[ Most of this doesn't necessarily cover what he's like, but Gorgug ends up distracting himself momentarily from that point before he manages to swing back around. ]
He said he'd help me learn about spaceships too. That's cool. [ He looks at Fabian then, glancing at the baby bundle in his arms. ] He doesn't know about them, but I said about... I was trying to take another friend's advice about working with them, so I got talking about missions, and about how I wanna go back on that spaceship to fix it.
He said he'd ask if anyone knows anything about them.
[ So, a pretty cool dude! Imagine humouring Gorgug and his interests... ]
[ It's maybe kind of an underwhelming answer, but-- let's be real, it's not like Fabian knows what else to say to all of that. He's inclined to compare any and all fathers to his own, after all, and in Fabian's mind no one could ever live up to Bill Seacaster, naturally.
Still, he doesn't want to dunk on Gorgug's relationship with his fake dad. Maybe it's good for his friend, you know? Making new friends through.. being forced to be family..
Look, sometimes it requires unconventional methods, you know. ]
That doesn't sound so bad. [ Maybe not the most excited Fabian approval, but it is approval!! You know Fabian would absolutely not hesitate to complain! ] You're really sure he wasn't bullying you though?
[ Says the guy who punched Gorgug on the first day of school and gloated about it. ]
[ Bro, bro... what's wrong with connecting to his fake dad about spaceships. :(
Just to instead make him re-question himself about if he was being bullied. He's thinking about it, since--Sam seemed to find it weird that Gorgug would think that, but now Fabian's questioning his judgment, so maybe it wasn't weird for Gorgug to think it in the first place? That might be validating, if not for now making Gorgug reconsider things. ]
Do you think he was? [ --He didn't describe why he thought he was getting bullied, did he? But now Gorgug stops, doing so in front of Fabian to make him stop too. ] He started doing this, as we were talking...
[ And Gorgug leans an arm draped over one of Fabian's shoulders, using him as a weight. This also matches too, actually: they have a similar height difference to one another as he and Sam do, meaning that Gorgug's still looking slightly down at his friend. ]
And we never talked much, so I thought, he's trying to intimidate me, right? Is this intimidating?
[ Let him even cross his legs slightly, put his other hand in his hoodie pocket like he's going full tough guy speaking down to the little guy...!! ]
[ For what it's worth, Fabian does let Gorgug do this entire thing. The most he does is shift the baby he's holding out of the way a little, just to prevent another accidental disaster..
But he is quiet. Like he needs just a second to think about this. Even if the conclusion Fabian seems to arrive at is a solid: ]
I don't know? I'm fairly sure Ragh has done this to me before. [ Maybe Fabian is so unfazed by it because about 75% of people he knows are either ridiculously smaller or taller than him. It's what happens when you have a now-giant-demon-papa and half-orc bros on your sports team, and then a very tiny bestie and very tiny babysitter-slash-maid.. It kind of skews your perception of height and what it does to certain gestures. ] Has he never done that to you?
[ Fabian may be temporarily forgetting that it wouldn't mean much either way since they're practically the same size, unlike him!! Maybe the problem is just that Gorgug isn't used to encountering people taller than him.. ]
Yeah. [ Come on, Fabian, of course Ragh has! It's Ragh! ] But Ragh's a friend. Did Ragh do this the first time you talked with him?
[ Gorgug shuffles, and then...he grows a few inches. Re-adjusting the arm restlessly uselessly over Fabian's shoulder, when it doesn't need adjusting at all, but he's doing all this (yes, he is getting on his tippy toes) as he says-- ] Look-- think about it. You're meeting me for the first day. I'm talking to you like this--
[ Also, he's inching in closer. He is asserting Dominance. Did Sam actually do this? Do you think he remembers? He's trying to appear taller! ]
You don't think it's intimidating? You're not intimidated?
[ Does he need to come in closer, bro? Bro??? He will!!! ]
[ He opens his mouth, about to tell what Ragh did do the first time Fabian met him, which was nothing like this but actually not really all that pleasant either, and of course Gorgug wouldn't have known that since he wasn't at Bloodrush try-outs the way Fabian had been--
But then Gorgug just.. gets more intense about this. Somehow. Which makes any and all words die in Fabian's throat. Not because he's intimidated, mind you, but mostly because he's starting to look more confused the more Gorgug tries to tower over him. Like he doesn't already kind of do that by default. ]
I-- What, is this meant to be intimidating?! [ He doesn't sound intimidated.. Sorry, bro. Just a little confused by all this sudden proximity going on! ] I mean, you are not even threatening me!
[ Threatening Fabian, technically, is not the point here. It's not about being deliberate, but when Fabian says he's not doing that, then--Gorgug becomes conflicted. Wondering how he would threaten Fabian, and then looking at him, but also catching sight of the baby still snoozing in the other's arms. Which means he can't be loud, right?
So, very carefully, trying not to knock the baby, Gorgug reaches for the front of Fabian's shirt and leans his head in; a delicate manner to his motion and even his touch, where he's not screwing up Fabian's clothes very hard.
And, in a whisper: ] I'll pummel you into the ground.
[ Please note the expression he's wearing that looks like his every day grimacing face that's looking for validating. Is this good? Is he threatening, Fabian? ]
Sure, this gets a few more points. Fabian can kind of see the vision this time, at least. Leaning onto him wasn't very intimidating, but the hand? He should probably be doing it harder, but Fabian figures that Gorgug is holding back on purpose. And he can even kind of understand the whispering must be because of the peaceful little robot baby bundle in Fabian's arms.
But that still leaves one problem.
One very big problem. A problem that is - quite literally - staring Fabian in the face right as they speak. ]
Gorgug--
[ He starts at his usual volume, but then immediately lowers the volume of his voice, almost as if he's being drawn along into Gorgug's pace over here.. ]
Why is your face like that?! [ Bro?! Is this your idea of intimidating? Are you uncomfortable?
.. do you just need to shit really bad? Because that's kind of what that face is telling him right now, and Fabian thinks that's likely not its intention? ]
Why is my face like what? What's wrong with my face?
[ Bro? Bro? Are you picking on him? Are you bullying him? After the touching moment they had?! Because Gorgug looks even worse than he did a moment ago, as if he's on the road to tears.
But it doesn't get there. Instead, he draws back his hand, turning his abashed expression to the ground. ]
I don't want to bully a dad holding his baby. It doesn't feel right, it just got out of hospital.
[ The sad thing is, it's partially the truth.... ]
[ Fine. Fabian does believe it's part of the reason. Especially when Gorgug clearly wouldn't want to do anything bad to the baby all over again after what happened. It's only natural that he'd try to be more gentle.
But also.. you know.
He knows Gorgug. He knows what Gorgug is like. And while Gorgug can be a beast on the battlefield, outside of it, it's.. This. Basically.
So even though Fabian is blunt enough to point out: ] You look like you're about to cry!
[ He at least is trying real hard to not make it sound as judgmental as it might have been when said to anyone else out there. ]
[ Why. Why is this the thing that's happening to him! He's supposed to be the one intimidating Fabian!
Instead, Gorgug is sputtering. He's moving back from Fabian with an utter look of offence creasing that constipated expression, and he truly does look like an upset kid. One that looks at Fabian and then looks away, as he needs the time to come to some conclusion that isn't all of these other emotions. Of betrayal. Of hurt! ]
Y-you know, Fabian-- [ He lifts a finger, pointing it (shakily) at his friend, ] --you're being a real-- loser.
[ That's not a cool 'what', by the way. It's not an intimidating 'what' at all. Fabian just sounds confused, as if what Gorgug was saying just now totally caught him by surprise - maybe neither of them knowing for sure anymore whether this is still an act of Gorgug trying to intimidate Fabian or just something that's happening for real.
Fabian sure doesn't know, anyway. It's why he looks so confused! What's going on! How did they get here! Is this all just because he was asking about Gorgug's fake dad?! ]
Why am I a loser?! [ His voice may be cracking a little on that last word.
You know. In a way that's very cool. I promise. ]
You can't just call me a loser, not even jokingly! [ BRO!!! Not in front of the baby!! ]
[ Leave it to Fabian to not even consider the reason he's been called a loser is because
he's a loser.
And Fabian's reaction is only bolstering the grumpy era inside Gorgug's heart. Fabian is telling him what he can and can't do?? Well, that only means that Gorgug is going to take that pointing finger of his....and poke Fabian on the chest with it. ]
Loser.
[ See!! You're not his dad! You're not his real or fake dad! What are you gonna do now!! Now that Gorgug is supreme (bully)!!!
Please forget the touching moment they had minutes ago inside the hospital. Gorgug has, apparently. In his search to be a big and confident half-orc who doesn't take no SHIT!!!! (shit may or may not be in gorgug's head) ]
[ Gorgug's grumpy era surely is something to behold. And it's not like Fabian hasn't seen it before - look, his friend sure got worked up at the festival that was held over at his place - it's stranger when it's both aimed at him and seems to come out of nowhere. There wasn't even a lawnmower this time! Not to mention that Fabian is holding an innocent child, and they just shared a sweet moment!
But something about the sheer absurdity of it actually calms Fabian down compared to a moment ago. Like his brain just can't make sense of it, so it's given up. No longer any need to get worked up when you've given up.
Or when you know: ]
Gorgug, I am the most popular person in our entire school. [ #humblebrag.
Except there's nothing humble about it. Fabian sounds like a peacock as he's saying it, like he didn't just break down inside of a hospital. Like he was like this the whole way through. For sure. Never was uncool. ]
If you have some sort of idea in your mind that is convincing you that you must insult me, you ought to do it with something better than a simple untruth.
Popular people can be losers. Dayne was a loser. So was Penelope--everybody decided they were popular.
[ Remember? Remember? At least Gorgug isn't poking at Fabian now, since Gorgug sees that it isn't working to the effect he wants (does he? maybe), and he's crossing his arms now to instead...fit the grumpier expression he's currently going for. Sulking, but who knows why? Gorgug isn't trying to fix himself here. He wants to continue to be toxic for no reason whatsoever.
All because of one reason he refuses to address. Because he is sulking. But at least he isn't trying to bring out any other ammo, or to push it any further than to make this point. Does he want to bully Fabian that hard? Not really.
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Getting stabbed's easy-- we're always getting stabbed. I don't have to read any books to get stabbed, I just have to swing around an axe and hit things.
[ And listen to Gorgug's near whine of a reply, and how nothing the threat of violence sounds coming from Gorgug. He doesn't even care. Why would they care at this point? Whatever, so their lives as they knew them nearly ended twice and there were a bunch of deaths.
So what!!! ]
Do you get homework? [ There's definitely emphasis on that get. Fabian, with his fighter classes and bard dances. What's even homework when you're Fabian? Can he truly understand the suffering? ] Do you have to read books?
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[ Maybe you can see now why Fabian doesn't think school work is worse than anything they do when they go out there and fight, Gorgug. Not that Fabian really minds fighting, he thinks it's fun, it's just-- a whole lot more traumatizing stuff happens out there than in any of his classrooms! ]
I mean, we sometimes do? But most of the time in fighter class we are just practicing through sparring, and in bard class we just-- well, we dance. I get homework sometimes for fighter class, but Miss Skullcleaver doesn't believe in homework. She says dance is always in the present. [ Must be nice to have like.. a normal teacher, huh. Gorgug. A chill teacher. Just imagine. ]
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It's a brief feeling, though. ]
I had all the homework and studying I had to do because of artificing and the MCAT thing, but, barbarian classes-- I didn't have homework, but Porter was being a hardass. He really wanted me to dig into my anger better for my rage, so I was trying to find time to do that too. To get mad the way he wanted me to.
But honestly, after school and bloodrush practices, I just wanted to sleep.
[ He was pissed off, but finding time for it amongst all that work was hard. It's not a situation he has to deal with now (even if he was back in Spyre), but, man. Man! ]
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It's the sort of sound that makes him sound much more like himself than anything else he's said ever since they entered the hospital. Like talking about normal things and not having gotten into too much trouble is giving him some of his usual spirit back, even if he's not quite his usual self just yet. ]
Well, that is because Porter is an asshole.
[ You're totally allowed to call your friends' teachers assholes, okay. Fabian would let his friends call his teachers assholes if they earned it - but fortunately he thinks they are both rather cool in their own way. ]
I can't see any other reason why he would have treated you the way he did. [ Okay, fine, Fig would see another reason. But she truly seems like some unhinged conspiracy theorist about this thing half of the time. ]
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It's over now. [ Is Gorgug willing to give him a pass now because it's over? You bet!!! ] I mean, I guess it really is over, since we're here and not at school... but I showed him what he wanted to see, and he's willing to give me a chance now. That's all I needed. And I'll show it was the right choice when we see everyone again. I wanna keep it up.
[ Not that Gorgug's been shy about wanting to continue his studies, especially his artificer learning. Maybe to a ridiculous amount to the others, but-- it's a lot of work! And there's a lot of down time in (and out, apparently) Etraya! ]
I don't mind trying a different approach to my rage. I can give it a go.
[ He truly is giving Porter more grace than he deserves...... ]
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Sure, he may not really have personal experience with the guy, and he's fully well aware that Fig likely exaggerates her stories about him. But he also knows just how stressed out the guy made Gorgug seem all the time, and that's frankly pretty unforgiveable in Fabian's eyes. So what if he doesn't give a guy a fair shot - maybe he should first consider not being a jerk to Fabian's friends?? ]
But that doesn't make the way he treated you a good thing. [ Just saying, bro!! Not that Fabian can comment on the rage thing much, considering it's not like it's something he's ever had to deal with on a personal level.. But he can speak about this, at least, shifting the little baby bundle in his arms very carefully as they walk. ] You know that, right?
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I just have to meet him at his... level? Give him what he wants. [ To a degree. But Gorgug's looking ahead now, the doors to the way out not that far, and considers thoughtfully: ] I think we can both get a good lesson out of it, if I show him, if he just gives people a chance-- and I can get a lesson out of it, too. Dealing with people like him.
[ He truly is looking at the bright side of this! Or attempting. And what if there could be a good lesson for the both of them? Especially with Porter being a teacher who might one day teach another barbarian with interests he might not entirely agree with...
Gorgug walks over to the door to push open, holding it briefly for Fabian to step through (since he has the child!). ]
I'm still working on that here, too. You know-- talking to people.
[ Remember, Fabian? That wonderful conversation about Gorgug gathering information from strangers that they talked about on the ship?? He's still practising!!! ]
I bet it'll help.
[ He's aiming for...optimism...! ]
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But Gorgug sounds so earnest about all of this that Fabian has a hard time picking it apart, really. He'd just feel terrible if he tried. Especially when Gorgug has gone out of his way to help him with this entire baby situation. (Yes, technically Gorgug did make it worse somewhere in the middle, but-- the rest of this probably cancels out the whole arm ripping thing.
Probably.)
So rather than pointing any of that out, Fabian just opens his mouth to say: ]
That's good.
[ Hey, it is good, isn't it? If they're going to have to deal with all these people from all sorts of worlds in this place, it's better for Gorgug if he can actually talk to them. ]
How's that going so far?
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I got to know one of my dads... [ There's that... ] And I got you and Riz and Adaine those bracelet beads...
[ What else....who else...
There's a delay before he speaks again, trying to sound confident, as: ] And I've spoken to different people, so, yeah. It's going okay.
[ Nevermind the huge struggle to think there, like Gorgug's brain shut off and had to be rebooted. It's okay if Gorgug doesn't have to give any details, right? Was he supposed to be doing something particular when he spoke to people anyway? ]
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...
It's tempting to say something here about maybe the end result not being as great as Gorgug is imagining it, but.. well, see all of the above. Not to mention that Fabian doesn't want to discourage Gorgug when he knows the other is working on this in his.. own little Gorgug way.
Besides, maybe it's not that the social interactions themselves have been awkward. Maybe it's just that Gorgug trying to relay how they went is just the thing that's happening awkwardly. Fabian would believe it.
So rather than touching any of that, he decides to go for what feels like a safer question. ]
What is that father you've gotten to know like? [ Look, if they can make Fabian a dad, then they can clearly be making anyone a father up in here!! ]
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He's...okay. He mowed a lawn, [ wow, ] and I thought he was gonna start bullying me, but he told me he wasn't. [ Amazing. ] He's taller than me. And... he likes his jacket.
[ Most of this doesn't necessarily cover what he's like, but Gorgug ends up distracting himself momentarily from that point before he manages to swing back around. ]
He said he'd help me learn about spaceships too. That's cool. [ He looks at Fabian then, glancing at the baby bundle in his arms. ] He doesn't know about them, but I said about... I was trying to take another friend's advice about working with them, so I got talking about missions, and about how I wanna go back on that spaceship to fix it.
He said he'd ask if anyone knows anything about them.
[ So, a pretty cool dude! Imagine humouring Gorgug and his interests... ]
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[ It's maybe kind of an underwhelming answer, but-- let's be real, it's not like Fabian knows what else to say to all of that. He's inclined to compare any and all fathers to his own, after all, and in Fabian's mind no one could ever live up to Bill Seacaster, naturally.
Still, he doesn't want to dunk on Gorgug's relationship with his fake dad. Maybe it's good for his friend, you know? Making new friends through.. being forced to be family..
Look, sometimes it requires unconventional methods, you know. ]
That doesn't sound so bad. [ Maybe not the most excited Fabian approval, but it is approval!! You know Fabian would absolutely not hesitate to complain! ] You're really sure he wasn't bullying you though?
[ Says the guy who punched Gorgug on the first day of school and gloated about it. ]
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Just to instead make him re-question himself about if he was being bullied. He's thinking about it, since--Sam seemed to find it weird that Gorgug would think that, but now Fabian's questioning his judgment, so maybe it wasn't weird for Gorgug to think it in the first place? That might be validating, if not for now making Gorgug reconsider things. ]
Do you think he was? [ --He didn't describe why he thought he was getting bullied, did he? But now Gorgug stops, doing so in front of Fabian to make him stop too. ] He started doing this, as we were talking...
[ And Gorgug leans an arm draped over one of Fabian's shoulders, using him as a weight. This also matches too, actually: they have a similar height difference to one another as he and Sam do, meaning that Gorgug's still looking slightly down at his friend. ]
And we never talked much, so I thought, he's trying to intimidate me, right? Is this intimidating?
[ Let him even cross his legs slightly, put his other hand in his hoodie pocket like he's going full tough guy speaking down to the little guy...!! ]
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But he is quiet. Like he needs just a second to think about this. Even if the conclusion Fabian seems to arrive at is a solid: ]
I don't know? I'm fairly sure Ragh has done this to me before. [ Maybe Fabian is so unfazed by it because about 75% of people he knows are either ridiculously smaller or taller than him. It's what happens when you have a now-giant-demon-papa and half-orc bros on your sports team, and then a very tiny bestie and very tiny babysitter-slash-maid.. It kind of skews your perception of height and what it does to certain gestures. ] Has he never done that to you?
[ Fabian may be temporarily forgetting that it wouldn't mean much either way since they're practically the same size, unlike him!! Maybe the problem is just that Gorgug isn't used to encountering people taller than him.. ]
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[ Gorgug shuffles, and then...he grows a few inches. Re-adjusting the arm restlessly uselessly over Fabian's shoulder, when it doesn't need adjusting at all, but he's doing all this (yes, he is getting on his tippy toes) as he says-- ] Look-- think about it. You're meeting me for the first day. I'm talking to you like this--
[ Also, he's inching in closer. He is asserting Dominance. Did Sam actually do this? Do you think he remembers? He's trying to appear taller! ]
You don't think it's intimidating? You're not intimidated?
[ Does he need to come in closer, bro? Bro??? He will!!! ]
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But then Gorgug just.. gets more intense about this. Somehow. Which makes any and all words die in Fabian's throat. Not because he's intimidated, mind you, but mostly because he's starting to look more confused the more Gorgug tries to tower over him. Like he doesn't already kind of do that by default. ]
I-- What, is this meant to be intimidating?! [ He doesn't sound intimidated.. Sorry, bro. Just a little confused by all this sudden proximity going on! ] I mean, you are not even threatening me!
[ Please remember where Fabian grew up, Gorgug.
His standards for intimidation are pretty high. ]
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So, very carefully, trying not to knock the baby, Gorgug reaches for the front of Fabian's shirt and leans his head in; a delicate manner to his motion and even his touch, where he's not screwing up Fabian's clothes very hard.
And, in a whisper: ] I'll pummel you into the ground.
[ Please note the expression he's wearing that looks like his every day grimacing face that's looking for validating. Is this good? Is he threatening, Fabian? ]
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Sure, this gets a few more points. Fabian can kind of see the vision this time, at least. Leaning onto him wasn't very intimidating, but the hand? He should probably be doing it harder, but Fabian figures that Gorgug is holding back on purpose. And he can even kind of understand the whispering must be because of the peaceful little robot baby bundle in Fabian's arms.
But that still leaves one problem.
One very big problem. A problem that is - quite literally - staring Fabian in the face right as they speak. ]
Gorgug--
[ He starts at his usual volume, but then immediately lowers the volume of his voice, almost as if he's being drawn along into Gorgug's pace over here.. ]
Why is your face like that?! [ Bro?! Is this your idea of intimidating? Are you uncomfortable?
.. do you just need to shit really bad? Because that's kind of what that face is telling him right now, and Fabian thinks that's likely not its intention? ]
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[ Bro? Bro? Are you picking on him? Are you bullying him? After the touching moment they had?! Because Gorgug looks even worse than he did a moment ago, as if he's on the road to tears.
But it doesn't get there. Instead, he draws back his hand, turning his abashed expression to the ground. ]
I don't want to bully a dad holding his baby. It doesn't feel right, it just got out of hospital.
[ The sad thing is, it's partially the truth.... ]
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But also.. you know.
He knows Gorgug. He knows what Gorgug is like. And while Gorgug can be a beast on the battlefield, outside of it, it's.. This. Basically.
So even though Fabian is blunt enough to point out: ] You look like you're about to cry!
[ He at least is trying real hard to not make it sound as judgmental as it might have been when said to anyone else out there. ]
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Instead, Gorgug is sputtering. He's moving back from Fabian with an utter look of offence creasing that constipated expression, and he truly does look like an upset kid. One that looks at Fabian and then looks away, as he needs the time to come to some conclusion that isn't all of these other emotions. Of betrayal. Of hurt! ]
Y-you know, Fabian-- [ He lifts a finger, pointing it (shakily) at his friend, ] --you're being a real-- loser.
[ It's here. Gorgug is now in his Grumps Era. ]
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[ That's not a cool 'what', by the way. It's not an intimidating 'what' at all. Fabian just sounds confused, as if what Gorgug was saying just now totally caught him by surprise - maybe neither of them knowing for sure anymore whether this is still an act of Gorgug trying to intimidate Fabian or just something that's happening for real.
Fabian sure doesn't know, anyway. It's why he looks so confused! What's going on! How did they get here! Is this all just because he was asking about Gorgug's fake dad?! ]
Why am I a loser?! [ His voice may be cracking a little on that last word.
You know. In a way that's very cool. I promise. ]
You can't just call me a loser, not even jokingly! [ BRO!!! Not in front of the baby!! ]
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he's a loser.
And Fabian's reaction is only bolstering the grumpy era inside Gorgug's heart. Fabian is telling him what he can and can't do?? Well, that only means that Gorgug is going to take that pointing finger of his....and poke Fabian on the chest with it. ]
Loser.
[ See!! You're not his dad! You're not his real or fake dad! What are you gonna do now!! Now that Gorgug is supreme (bully)!!!
Please forget the touching moment they had minutes ago inside the hospital. Gorgug has, apparently. In his search to be a big and confident half-orc who doesn't take no SHIT!!!! (shit may or may not be in gorgug's head) ]
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But something about the sheer absurdity of it actually calms Fabian down compared to a moment ago. Like his brain just can't make sense of it, so it's given up. No longer any need to get worked up when you've given up.
Or when you know: ]
Gorgug, I am the most popular person in our entire school. [ #humblebrag.
Except there's nothing humble about it. Fabian sounds like a peacock as he's saying it, like he didn't just break down inside of a hospital. Like he was like this the whole way through. For sure. Never was uncool. ]
If you have some sort of idea in your mind that is convincing you that you must insult me, you ought to do it with something better than a simple untruth.
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[ Remember? Remember? At least Gorgug isn't poking at Fabian now, since Gorgug sees that it isn't working to the effect he wants (does he? maybe), and he's crossing his arms now to instead...fit the grumpier expression he's currently going for. Sulking, but who knows why? Gorgug isn't trying to fix himself here. He wants to continue to be toxic for no reason whatsoever.
All because of one reason he refuses to address. Because he is sulking. But at least he isn't trying to bring out any other ammo, or to push it any further than to make this point. Does he want to bully Fabian that hard? Not really.
Unless Fabian is mean to him!! ]
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